Power of Prayer

For some yesterday the 30/03/2010 was just one day that went by .. and if not for what i have to say .. it would have been the same for me as well .. But i am thankful it was not so .. God had different plans for that Tuesday. a plan of hope for my darkness .. over the last couple of weeks i was so tormented deep down.. fighting a battle of hope .. Didn't know whom to share things with rather didn't want to share what i was going through to the anyone in the world.. On 29/03.2010 unplanned, someway, somehow i found some time in an usual conversation with mom and somehow my worries just came out from my mouth . Not that i felt any better sharing it with others for i had caved it all deep in myself .. prob like a turtle in its shell .. Its true that a mothers knows a sons heart and i know as she would sleep all she would do is pray for me all night long. i felt helpless but to let go but in all i knew My God was ALL KNOWING and held onto his promises . i went to bed thinking over all i had done for him in my life . praying and saying it out to God that i needed some sign because i found things getting difficult . i was lying down but i couldn't sleep .As time went by my brother came and slept beside .he brushed my hair probably cause he thought i was sleeping. I liked it like many do and didnt want him to stop . after a while i could hear him weeping .. i didn't turn to him cause i couldn't face him .. I knew those were tears of prayers. soon my heart was even more burdened and i felt so torn in knowing he was worried for me . tears ran down my cheek and i offered my cries to Jesus .I dont know when i slept .. all i knew was finding it difficult to find words to frame a prayer .. all i did was lay it down before God .. 

Yesterday i recieved two calls for interview . one from the company that said "Sorry we selected another " they wanted to invite me for a second interview and another for an organization that will be a dream for anyone..nothing is yet clear and laid down ..But i am sure its God who worked amidst all the impossibilites to open a door of hope . I dont know how much more i must thank God .. But trust me folks when you are on the verge of losing hope still dont give up .. Because its God who framed time and he holds you up when you have given all you have to him .. Prayer is something that words cant define its a source to tap in to the outer realm .. So dont give up even if your body and mind says to ... find strength in God

Hope ...

One's Hope .. one's dreams .. they can never be contained or limited.. You are the author of your hope .. You are the artist of your dreams .
Like me i believe many would love to dream .. to hope .. its something thats held close and nurtured .. something that renews and refreshes us .. Definitely its found in each and everyone of us .. its capable of shedding light to the darkest corners of life .. Hope in itself is a source of energy .. an answer to a heart thats lost in its world .
They sometimes are the only propellant that will drive one in the roughed up oceans of life .Even in the deepest sorrow you can lie down hoping and dreaming for a better tomorro..
Hope is the rudder that steers you at times ...

It bends .. It twists .. It sometimes hides .. but rarely does it break .. it sustains us when nothing else can

Sounds great doesnt it ??? But what to do when your hopes fade .. when your dreams vanish ... when
reality deals a cruel blow ... when you lost the rudder to the storms ... will ya give into the ocean ?? Today i feel like i lost the ruder , i feel like a person paddling the storms with a spread palm only pausing to realize that my paddle was swept away !! Not sure how much long will i have to paddle on  .. But deep down
i know i must not give in ... I feel terrible deep down ..
My only source of inspiration is my faith in God ,, My saviour .. I have been waiting on him and i know he will blow me to the shores a "tomorrow " as for now im pushing each day forward comforting myself saying there is a " better tomorrow"coming soon . Dont know when my mind will fail to be comforted by these same words ..
Heard bout the story of the fox that jumps for the grapes ! and then it resolves saying those grapes must be sour !! well for me my dreams are still far away from those leaps of a realization .. but my story is different ! i bind to say to myself that the next grapes i am gonna jump for is sweeter one than that i missed upon .. thats my hope .. and i am not going to let anyone steal that from me ..

To Live with your choices ...

In life there will be times you have to take decisions .. for some its a lot more frequent but for some a less frequent scale but certainly not avoidable ..
I have had my own share of decisions to be taken . At times its challenging to look back on all those decisions that one has made .. and at times i wonder how different my today would have been if i had opted for different choices to those decisions .
Would it have put me on a course of life all together different ?? i probably couldn't justify my answers even i would like too . True and definite there are decisions that i wish i chose were different . But ultimately i need to look into my present knowing my past cant be changed ..
Probably not only decisions , but words and actions .. from denial of a request to a simple nod of head to a promise .. all of them are polished decisions and choices of life that have been made and again will be made ...
I know like everyone else that i cant change the past .. neither can i take my words back or undo all i did or even retake those wrong decisions .And deep down i know all i can do is express my realization of all thats said and done .

to Learn In Variable Environment .. to LIVE in what i created ..

What you find around you is a reflection of your choices and decisions .. a product of what you did a "yesterday" ... You and Me ourselves are responsible for the environment we create around us ..

Why the name "the-frozenbreeze"

You want your blog to be personal and that would go the same for any individual . I brain stormed to get a name a phrase that i liked .And after a lot of tick-tock round the clock .. i could only channel onto breeze .. Its simply cause i love breeze .. I enjoy every moment a breeze runs across your face m the gentle touch , the sure yet enigmatic presence of a supernatural presence beside you ..
I dont know if its common for all but when i feel low and down within myself a simple breeze spreads a ray of hope for me .. And i cherish and savor on those very moments .. In my opinion is very true that emotions can never be held captive .. they are freely flowing forms of invisible energy . And as the very laws of physics state .. i sometimes agree to myself thinking it can be transfered from one person to other and probably cannot be formed or destroyed .. And i dont think you can capture emotions you could only do an attempt to depict it . neither can you capture breeze or wind , all you could do is harness them .. Those moments that ive cherished are like those breezes i enjoyed . i wish i could hold onto them more. ..
At the frozen breeze i try to do the same .. those moments that are worth an attempt in being captured i try to freeze them here in my blog !! my back ground !! THE FROZEN BREEZE

Evolution of Titans 26

As i hear the word "College" the very first thing that comes to my mind is "Titans 26" ... And maybe i should put up this on my blog cause its one of those many dear things that i will cherish and relish everytime i look back on it
St. Josephs college has offered me lot to remember .. some with pain and some with gain . And my batch is the first on the GAIN LIST .. I still remember stepping into my college and into my hostel . Never prepared to what i would face . But starting those days with a handful of familiar faces did do a lot .. I had never stayed away from home until college . There were five from Sharjah Indian School to the college and probably its cause of that we guys never had a mental breakdown :P going through the rooms lists and getting to the rooms. Myself, Rojin , Jesson , Robin , Akhil , Initially that was the group .
We had joined the hostel actually a couple of days before than that the college had asked us to . So we hung around and then quested our self with the task of finding other mallus in the hostel. Soon we met Abel and Simon . we had planned on acting as seniors and later after capturing every emotion finally befriend them .. but as usual i blurted out and ended giving a hand shake to simon ! and eventually we just blended along to be 7 . Soon the 7 grew with tintu and jery who were from UAE , Sony from q8 , later on Bibin and Arun Joined in as Simon and Abel were from Doha and they knew Bibin who in turn was close to Arun .. So the group just kept growing .. Soon Samuel Bhai (rojins roomate) , Alex was in Bibins room no 147 and Sharath ,Varghese , Ephraim all had common friends among us ! In short to say there in those days blossomed probably the greatest of all invisible threads .. A bond among us that knit us in as one ! From the sports quota favorites Nikhil , Ajith , Rony to the all knowing PHD george ! to the so called NRIS from doha and uae to the ever memorable lateral entries who though had only three years in the batch these four laterals (Shibu,Renjith,Cyril,Nelvin) became the important four to BRING the TITANZ from 22 to 26 !!
Prob its hard to phrase it as "Gone are those days ..." but these memories will last a million more days .

P.S 4give if names are skipped out ! All of ya 26 are close to heart !! cheerios m8

Walking into the blogging world

woo hooo and im off blogging on my first blog entry ...
I decided to give a shot at blogging today so probably after a couple of years i can see where and when i started .
First of all thanks to Shibu Tharol .. He inspired me from his blog works . I waste a good share of my 24 hours these days in a twattillyyyy useless manner ... and maybe this could help me spend some quality time . Myself and Shibu have some common grounds so maybe i can also live up to share a page from his book rather blog .
So here today i am blogging .... Thanks to you mate .
Well others if you need you could start off with me :P