welcoming 2011 !!

New years eve alone at home with some personal time with God. I don't think its a bad way to start the year. So much up in the coming 365 days . Lot to go through . Good and Bad . Easy and Tough . All are up for the year. Probably too much to worry already on . But even in changing seasons its good to have my faith on an unchanging and everlasting God. Started the year with Psalm 71 and the song "Voice of Hope"

Two verses from the Psalm 71

1 In You, O LORD, I put my trust; 

Let me never be put to shame.

5 For You are my hope, O Lord God;

You are my trust from my youth 

And Below the Song :)

For all thats in store for me this New year i ask one thing ! Sufficiency from God. To carry on with what he gives, thru the good times and the bad times.to take them as he gives and lean onto his shoulders; if to weep, weeping only to wet his feet.

Growing stronger and walking closer, living this life back to a God who at the first place gave it :)

God Bless you mates . Have an amazingly awesome 2011 :) Wishing you all and myself a fun filled grace filled New Year

 

Wondering who you are?

You could have people, parents, friends, relatives just pouring out on how inept you are. They go ahead and benchmark you with others. They say how you havent reached thier expectations.

Are you gonna drink in all that sorrow ands say to yourself what they assume you are? Are we going to gauge ourselves with the failures and losses that we have had?

Let us be clear and draw a line on that its definately not our failures, weekness and inabilities that define us. And even more let us not dwell on how and what others define us on. If you ever want someone to define you then stop to pin your ears back only to God and to how he wants to define you.

We must realize that our clarity comes from our very inner self, and that if being Gods then we are being defined inward out. Cause we now trust in God's definition of us and that is the small seed that God has planted in you and he wants that to grow within you.

But again that is not going to sprout and grow into a tree in a day. It’s on how you water and nourish it and the growth will in due course come.If we sit and dwell on others expectation we are falling short of God's purpose in us.


And no matter how broken hurt or drowntrodden we are this capacity for growth, excellence and realization remains within us.

For this power comes from the fact that we were created in the image and likeness of God. And that is irrevocable and intamperable.

I and you need to start defining ourselves in a new perspective, one that stops summing ourselves by the opinion of the world and start seeing ourselves as God sees us.Cause we are precious. We are beautiful. We are his perfection

God wants us to be exceptional men and women, which progression starts when we stop summing ourselves with negativity and looking for aid from a creator.
And when we raise our hands for assistance, we will see God’s hand reaching out to us. Soon you will find all that neagtitvity you been feeding on is being washed by his aura of peace, love and warmth. All those become soon dying shadows in his radiating presence.

You are meant to be as awesome as you are. And none can take that away from you.Not even you.

God bless ya mate.

The Push

T he gentle Eagle coaxed her offspring to the edge of the nest. Her heart quivered with conflicting emotions as she felt their resistance to her persistent nudging,

The little ones didn't want to move to a territory unknown,they quite couldn't understand so as to why ? cause they to themselves where quite small and not ready for something big.and they knew all this was to something big and they feared.

She asked herself

"Why does the thrill of soaring have to begin with the fear of falling"

However this was an ageless questions that was still unanswered for her. None of the wiser eagles too had an answer to nullify what she felt for at that moment.

As in the tradition of the species her nest was located on the shelf of a sheer rock face. Below there was nothing but air to support the wings of her children.

Is it possible that this time it will work? Will they make it ? or will it be too late for her and to early for them she thought? fear was gripping her

Despite her fears the eagle knew it was time  her parental mission was all but complete, there remained one final mission 'THE PUSH'

The eagle drew courage from an innate wisdom

" that until her children discovered their wings , there was no purpose for their lives for until they learned how to soar they would fail to understand the privilege it was to have be born as an eagle "

The push was the greatest gift she had to offer
It was her supreme act of love
And so, one by one she pushed them ..

After all the Fear transformed into a TEAR.

 A tear of joy as she saw her children soaring high.

Mates ....  The push is sometimes what we need and even more it is sometimes what we need to give our dear ones.

it can be the greatest gift you ever give ..because it will change a life for ever

Filling in the empty spaces

 Probably the greatest synonym one can come up with CHRISTMAS is " Filling in the empty spaces". After all isn't that Christmas all about filling the empty spaces. A Saviour who came to fill in the empty space that separated Man from God. If it was so then our Xmas days and celebrations shouldn't be any different.
Filling in those spaces for your friends and family is the best thing you could do.

Every person would have an empty space. Something that they corner to or cave into when they feel sad or lost. Sometimes it could be, feeling of not being loved, a financial situation, a family problem, a loss, a health issue .. but if we can fill in those spaces it would do them a lot. True we cant change those situations but giving them hope, sharing and caring will mean a lot to them. Sometimes they wouldn't just share to you until you break that invisible barrier.And when you do a whole flood of emotions will hit you. You will find that noisy neighbour and cruel colleague is after all not how you had pictured it to be.

So cheer your mates. Wishing all a blessed Xmas and Amazing year ahead

A prayer unanswered ?

 I am not sure what outweighs a prayer. Is it the expectation and faith for the prayer to be answered or recognition of a father who does things and knows what is best for us? Sometimes we have so much expectation in prayer that at times an unanswered prayer tears us down. Is it because we really dont believe deep within that everything that happens does happen because God allows it ?

Would we need prayers to be answered even if it is not God's will? I still search within if i have prayed a prayer that way ? Was it wrong ?

When we pray we pray cause we need it to be answered. What do you do when it does not happen ? Question God  and throw ourself into a pit of doubt and neagitivity? Or try to take comfort in the fact that God allowed it to happen ? 


Sometimes its better to trust that to expect.

We prayed much, did all we could yet the outcome was not what one could hope for. Its hard to comfort and much truth is no man or woman can comfort a loss of someone so dear.

How things of future are going to be can not be said. But you can decide with whom the things of future must reside.

I pray that the comforthing presence and providence of God will strengthen each and every heart.

One can never really choose to hold on to what God has given.Sometimes life is short and when it winds down have you made that one chance count ? the chance to smile and make a difference ! the chance to forgive !

I would probably turn back to this entry just to remind myself of how important every second of our life is.We need to trust in God and take things as it comes to us not questioning the author but trusting in the perfector.

“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

God bless

Oops i got a blog that snoozed

 Seems like 3 months went zoooooommmmin thru and i dont have a blog update !! uhmmm guess i am Looking forward to the next year already ! Novembers winding down and soon December will give way to Jan 2011. Well thats lot in the future already. Dont ask me why my Blog always notches to faith ! But i like to keep it that way and not any different this time another thought that caught between my ears.

"Want something for the Next Year !! then you gotta start sowing for it  ! "


You can look to the image on the right and say " Oh boy ! thats how i am now . :( " . But then lemme just pull out one more line for ya .

"The harvest of your seed is the answer to your need"

You might not know what to do yet. But then if you desire for something go out on that field and start putting in your seeds of faith. Having a blessed year starts by proclaiming and blessing a year . You got a big DADDY who knows the game. So put your faith suit on and saddle up.

There is no other way. It's gotta be the way of faith and the walk of faith. This walk encompasses both the inward sphere of man and the outward actions of man. Everything in our being and our life is involved. The receiving and using of faith utilizes the complete man – spirit, soul, and body. All of the attributes of God and man are brought to bear in the attaining of the precious ‘substance’ called faith.

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1

… so that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ;… 1Peter 1:7

There are no shortcuts, no manipulations, and no excuses. There is no place for hiding or denial. All is exposed to the Word of God and to the Spirit of God.

For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart. Hebrews 4:12

God is a growth God. He demands that we grow, and we grow by growing the Word of God in our hearts, and then exhibiting that Word in our walks. Using the analogy that Jesus used in the Sermon on the Mount we could say that, “We must become salt and then we must act like salt, if we do not, then we are no good to anybody.”

This journey may at first look daunting, but do not lose heart, it is easier than it looks, for “His yoke is easy and His burden is light.” (Matthew 11:30) The hardest part is just doing it. Take the Word of God concerning what you need, plant it in your heart and grow your answer. Start planting the Word of God concerning your needs today. Start growing what you need today so you will have it tomorrow. Do something, however small. The harvest of your seed is the answer to your need, and harvests do not come without planting.

“The sower went to sow.” psshhhh I am talking bout you and moi .

Have a blessed year . God bless .

Letter to God

Letter to God .. Simple straight strong thought. kinda sad that it will remain on the shelves of some churches without reaching out to the many. I watched this movie a couple days back and i must say it is one the best ones i have seen. I aint gonna write on it. But just a thought that flickered on my minds after i saw that.
We dont see the small things in life. Because we got ourselves worrying or finding what we need to worry about. But for those who know they have to live with things that cant be changed turn the tables around and smile and thank for the small things in their life that they have to cheer about.
Often these things are so insignificant in our life.We never prayed for them but we have them,We dont even realize how it would have been if not for these small stuffs. The air, the water, the sight, the oxygen. personally i dont remember thanking God for the air with oxygen in it, or the sun for warmth and light it gives. But strikes me that certain people find joy in everything they have even with troubles written over them.
Oh how would it have been if we just learned to live with that heart to thank and find joy in the small things .

Don't feel in place ?

There would have been those times in life where you would have felt like the 'odd one out' . Times in your life where you just know that your not in the right space and time continuum . Where you might have said " Gash ! a bad day to wake up to ! "  and if you haven't gone through any of that ... quite ain't livin yet !  huh mate ? ...

     There been times in my life  where i just didn't know where to fit into. When things for others were falling in place and when i mean 'in place' . its "perfect place"  and your stuck up like a square peg in round hole. And 9/10 i would feel you been through that . Its in these moments that you need a caring hand or shoulder . Friends, family can do their part but they will never get the whole picture of your life.  Time will space friends,  time will space family but you to a greater extend need someone who formed time . I am not sure being a Believer eased things for me on the contrary i always had to kick the extra stone off my path. 

       But when i say " It sure helped me" . I mean it so much from my heart, you can run down gallons of tears talking to your friend or family and still find helpless. But it is fascinating and 'out of the world' thing when one tear shed just shatters barriers to reach your Heavenly father.Don't get me wrong but I am not talking of abilities of people 'who wear white and black and have the Bible rigged up their chest'. I am talking of a you and me. A person who is no different. God just loves soo soo much . He formed you to fit into something perfect.

If you would look onto a jigsaw puzzle they all have identical shaped ones. But it so doesn't mean that placing them in random 'goes-along' places makes the picture complete or what it is meant to be . Your perfect and meant to fit someplace where God designed and perfected you for. All you need to do is ask God to carry you to your place and wait on him. No matter what people say . You are perfectly made  

Psalm 40:5 Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders which You have done, And Your thoughts toward us; There is none to compare with You. If I would declare and speak of them, They would be too numerous to count.

 Let him carry you and set your life complete . Its alright to not feel in place ,once you know your in His hands. Because he sees the perfect picture .. and it is complete only with you and me in our "own" places .

Hold on .. He is coming to carry you to your place . God bless

Be Right Back

Its been around four months since i joined at my workplace. I am grateful to Almighty above for all things and they are getting better and learning a whole new dimension of things.Its been quite sometime since a been putting a start for a blog entry but then wrapped it cause one or the other came in the way .
Is it quite natural for all to forget those breaking times where you would pray from your inner depths for relief and once you sooth into it that relief you kinda unknowingly hold brakes .. Everyday waking up with a determination to stick to righteousness and every night praying for forgiveness and asking for a better tomorrow.
Who is to be blamed. world or me ?? I hope i can change each day towards perfection .
I guess these are the BRB(be right back) times we say to God. And i bet it sure is not pleasing. And this entry is for me to think . To mark something to look back and evaluate .  Hoping to get bloggin away :P

Do we value ?

Harshi , A 19 year girl old girl who had great dreams and pursued animation classes at SAE Dubai had a tweet entry that read as below

 "At the airport and blah =_= Only thing to look forward to is the rain."

that entry remains the same .... it will continue to remain the same ..

do i know her?? Is that twitter feed special ??"  My answer quite frankly would be NO followed by YES. I have never known Harshi . and i will never get to know her . But that twitter feed burns me ..

Unfortunately rains never wet her cheeks but instead tears would have .

 Even if i havent known her, seen her or heard her . But for some reason untold i break down within. She never knew that it would be her last twitter feed . She never thought her trip to mangalore would end her dreams .She never knew that it was the last time she would see her friends.  She has got none to blame . In short she never saw it coming .

Boarding the Dubai-Manglore Air india Plane to attend her cousins marriage . She looked much forward to the rains .She couldn't ....

Life is sad when breath leaves only never to return back . It shocks me to know how granted i take things. Be it a simple ride back home or a journey across the seas . None can guarantee existence .

Its just a thought !! Do we value each second of our life ? I dont know whats in-store for me tomorrow.
But as said

 Tomorrow is future , Yesterday was past but today ?? it is a present . A gift that is given to you and you ought to be thankful for  it 

I cant find more words to add ..
God Bless You ALL

Another year passed by

May 4 .. Another birthday . 04/05/2010 was my 23rd birthday . I thank God for all he has done for the past 23 years ! It would be ideal if  i termed it as a roller coaster ride . Much gained .. Much lost . It was the dual faced coin of life . But through all i learned to look life in a different perspective . To thank God for every situation . To trust in God .
                    There is a lot to look forward too. But sometimes we are too busy clinging on to the door handle of closed doors . Why not jump in thru the open windows ! Crazy as it sounds .. You would never believe so as to how God works in life . Channel your faith trusting on God to work for you and he will definitely work . I am glad that i got the job . In midst of all the negative comments of friends and foes . relatives and strangers . God worked for me . Trust me on this

"The moment you are willing to jump out of the captivity of negativity its then that God's work   starts to manifest in your life "

So you need to pull yourself out of what people say or your circumstances say .. Stand up and reach out to God's work in your life ..

Time is his Perfection

Its been quite sometime since i have been back in here to blog and i guess the reason was cause i was waiting for time to unfold a testimony . After college i came over to UAE to get a job and people flooded my mind with negative frames of how difficult it was to get a job . well leave job alone .. they told even an interview call was impossible . "You need a Job then you need contacts " was the story all had to share . I admit that i was worried but deep down i had faith .

I remember during college placements when everyone around was going from one interview to the next they had possible doors of earning a Job all around . I was moved cause i was not eligible . Its then i remember praying for the first time " God give me a job in the company that interviews me first " I didnt realize how significant it seemed but i meant it and at times i used to keep praying upon it .. After coming here i didnt receive any interview calls . By all means it didnt surprise others but i was expecting something EXTRA ordinary from God .. But  it didnt happen right from the word go .
I took up to fast and the third day an interview call came up .. It meant a lot to me .. I went gave the interview but all that excitement died when they send back a mail after couple of weeks stating that they have chosen another .. This was followed by a week of turmoil within myself thats around mid to later March. .. If you read my previous entries then you would know what i mean ..
God opened doors for me once again and i was called in for a second interview and offered a Job ! All praise and glory be to God .. But now they had problems with issuing a Visa for me cause their visa quota was full .. I was worried but held onto the promises .. "A job in the company that i gave my first interview" . with a day left for me to leave back to india and still no positive news i didnt know what to expect .. But in impossibilities God works and Time is his Perfection .. with hours left for leaving to India . I got ma Employment Visa . Issued a return ticket 2 hours before the aircraft departed and re entered the country the same day !
For God perfects time in his hands .. Your uncertainties is not your worry !! Because He who framed time is willing to PERFECT TIME FOR YOU  .. All glory and Honour to God

Power of Prayer

For some yesterday the 30/03/2010 was just one day that went by .. and if not for what i have to say .. it would have been the same for me as well .. But i am thankful it was not so .. God had different plans for that Tuesday. a plan of hope for my darkness .. over the last couple of weeks i was so tormented deep down.. fighting a battle of hope .. Didn't know whom to share things with rather didn't want to share what i was going through to the anyone in the world.. On 29/03.2010 unplanned, someway, somehow i found some time in an usual conversation with mom and somehow my worries just came out from my mouth . Not that i felt any better sharing it with others for i had caved it all deep in myself .. prob like a turtle in its shell .. Its true that a mothers knows a sons heart and i know as she would sleep all she would do is pray for me all night long. i felt helpless but to let go but in all i knew My God was ALL KNOWING and held onto his promises . i went to bed thinking over all i had done for him in my life . praying and saying it out to God that i needed some sign because i found things getting difficult . i was lying down but i couldn't sleep .As time went by my brother came and slept beside .he brushed my hair probably cause he thought i was sleeping. I liked it like many do and didnt want him to stop . after a while i could hear him weeping .. i didn't turn to him cause i couldn't face him .. I knew those were tears of prayers. soon my heart was even more burdened and i felt so torn in knowing he was worried for me . tears ran down my cheek and i offered my cries to Jesus .I dont know when i slept .. all i knew was finding it difficult to find words to frame a prayer .. all i did was lay it down before God .. 

Yesterday i recieved two calls for interview . one from the company that said "Sorry we selected another " they wanted to invite me for a second interview and another for an organization that will be a dream for anyone..nothing is yet clear and laid down ..But i am sure its God who worked amidst all the impossibilites to open a door of hope . I dont know how much more i must thank God .. But trust me folks when you are on the verge of losing hope still dont give up .. Because its God who framed time and he holds you up when you have given all you have to him .. Prayer is something that words cant define its a source to tap in to the outer realm .. So dont give up even if your body and mind says to ... find strength in God

Hope ...

One's Hope .. one's dreams .. they can never be contained or limited.. You are the author of your hope .. You are the artist of your dreams .
Like me i believe many would love to dream .. to hope .. its something thats held close and nurtured .. something that renews and refreshes us .. Definitely its found in each and everyone of us .. its capable of shedding light to the darkest corners of life .. Hope in itself is a source of energy .. an answer to a heart thats lost in its world .
They sometimes are the only propellant that will drive one in the roughed up oceans of life .Even in the deepest sorrow you can lie down hoping and dreaming for a better tomorro..
Hope is the rudder that steers you at times ...

It bends .. It twists .. It sometimes hides .. but rarely does it break .. it sustains us when nothing else can

Sounds great doesnt it ??? But what to do when your hopes fade .. when your dreams vanish ... when
reality deals a cruel blow ... when you lost the rudder to the storms ... will ya give into the ocean ?? Today i feel like i lost the ruder , i feel like a person paddling the storms with a spread palm only pausing to realize that my paddle was swept away !! Not sure how much long will i have to paddle on  .. But deep down
i know i must not give in ... I feel terrible deep down ..
My only source of inspiration is my faith in God ,, My saviour .. I have been waiting on him and i know he will blow me to the shores a "tomorrow " as for now im pushing each day forward comforting myself saying there is a " better tomorrow"coming soon . Dont know when my mind will fail to be comforted by these same words ..
Heard bout the story of the fox that jumps for the grapes ! and then it resolves saying those grapes must be sour !! well for me my dreams are still far away from those leaps of a realization .. but my story is different ! i bind to say to myself that the next grapes i am gonna jump for is sweeter one than that i missed upon .. thats my hope .. and i am not going to let anyone steal that from me ..

To Live with your choices ...

In life there will be times you have to take decisions .. for some its a lot more frequent but for some a less frequent scale but certainly not avoidable ..
I have had my own share of decisions to be taken . At times its challenging to look back on all those decisions that one has made .. and at times i wonder how different my today would have been if i had opted for different choices to those decisions .
Would it have put me on a course of life all together different ?? i probably couldn't justify my answers even i would like too . True and definite there are decisions that i wish i chose were different . But ultimately i need to look into my present knowing my past cant be changed ..
Probably not only decisions , but words and actions .. from denial of a request to a simple nod of head to a promise .. all of them are polished decisions and choices of life that have been made and again will be made ...
I know like everyone else that i cant change the past .. neither can i take my words back or undo all i did or even retake those wrong decisions .And deep down i know all i can do is express my realization of all thats said and done .

to Learn In Variable Environment .. to LIVE in what i created ..

What you find around you is a reflection of your choices and decisions .. a product of what you did a "yesterday" ... You and Me ourselves are responsible for the environment we create around us ..

Why the name "the-frozenbreeze"

You want your blog to be personal and that would go the same for any individual . I brain stormed to get a name a phrase that i liked .And after a lot of tick-tock round the clock .. i could only channel onto breeze .. Its simply cause i love breeze .. I enjoy every moment a breeze runs across your face m the gentle touch , the sure yet enigmatic presence of a supernatural presence beside you ..
I dont know if its common for all but when i feel low and down within myself a simple breeze spreads a ray of hope for me .. And i cherish and savor on those very moments .. In my opinion is very true that emotions can never be held captive .. they are freely flowing forms of invisible energy . And as the very laws of physics state .. i sometimes agree to myself thinking it can be transfered from one person to other and probably cannot be formed or destroyed .. And i dont think you can capture emotions you could only do an attempt to depict it . neither can you capture breeze or wind , all you could do is harness them .. Those moments that ive cherished are like those breezes i enjoyed . i wish i could hold onto them more. ..
At the frozen breeze i try to do the same .. those moments that are worth an attempt in being captured i try to freeze them here in my blog !! my back ground !! THE FROZEN BREEZE

Evolution of Titans 26

As i hear the word "College" the very first thing that comes to my mind is "Titans 26" ... And maybe i should put up this on my blog cause its one of those many dear things that i will cherish and relish everytime i look back on it
St. Josephs college has offered me lot to remember .. some with pain and some with gain . And my batch is the first on the GAIN LIST .. I still remember stepping into my college and into my hostel . Never prepared to what i would face . But starting those days with a handful of familiar faces did do a lot .. I had never stayed away from home until college . There were five from Sharjah Indian School to the college and probably its cause of that we guys never had a mental breakdown :P going through the rooms lists and getting to the rooms. Myself, Rojin , Jesson , Robin , Akhil , Initially that was the group .
We had joined the hostel actually a couple of days before than that the college had asked us to . So we hung around and then quested our self with the task of finding other mallus in the hostel. Soon we met Abel and Simon . we had planned on acting as seniors and later after capturing every emotion finally befriend them .. but as usual i blurted out and ended giving a hand shake to simon ! and eventually we just blended along to be 7 . Soon the 7 grew with tintu and jery who were from UAE , Sony from q8 , later on Bibin and Arun Joined in as Simon and Abel were from Doha and they knew Bibin who in turn was close to Arun .. So the group just kept growing .. Soon Samuel Bhai (rojins roomate) , Alex was in Bibins room no 147 and Sharath ,Varghese , Ephraim all had common friends among us ! In short to say there in those days blossomed probably the greatest of all invisible threads .. A bond among us that knit us in as one ! From the sports quota favorites Nikhil , Ajith , Rony to the all knowing PHD george ! to the so called NRIS from doha and uae to the ever memorable lateral entries who though had only three years in the batch these four laterals (Shibu,Renjith,Cyril,Nelvin) became the important four to BRING the TITANZ from 22 to 26 !!
Prob its hard to phrase it as "Gone are those days ..." but these memories will last a million more days .

P.S 4give if names are skipped out ! All of ya 26 are close to heart !! cheerios m8

Walking into the blogging world

woo hooo and im off blogging on my first blog entry ...
I decided to give a shot at blogging today so probably after a couple of years i can see where and when i started .
First of all thanks to Shibu Tharol .. He inspired me from his blog works . I waste a good share of my 24 hours these days in a twattillyyyy useless manner ... and maybe this could help me spend some quality time . Myself and Shibu have some common grounds so maybe i can also live up to share a page from his book rather blog .
So here today i am blogging .... Thanks to you mate .
Well others if you need you could start off with me :P